So I cut my hair recently, and right before that I bought a few new dresses and it feels very strange to see myself in them with the short boyish haircut. Not gonna lie that was one of the reasons why I had felt dissuaded from chopping it in the first place. Am I regretting it? We will find out : ) but the desire to wear exactly opposite of a green camouflage uniform that I wear every weekday (and dresses being as opposite as it could get) creates an inversely proportionate relationship between my hair length and my desire to wear dresses.
I’ve had this outfit idea in my head for quite some time now, and honestly if I am given the time and place to dress extra like that I would totally, because nothing beats a long dress + blazer combo. So many years later and I realise my love for blazers and formal wear still remains as illogical as ever.
Now that I look back, this is like the first proper outfit post that I have made in a long while. Dare I say this is the first in the year 2020? Perhaps because of an incompatible schedule and the pandemic, or my brother being especially uncooperative, I have not done any of these self-indulgent posts in a long time. I really struggled and rediscovered just how insanely difficult it is to do everything by myself, without the help of a tripod or newer camera that allows me to see how I look without scrambling between pose and the camera screen and praying that the framing is alright and repeating this process an inefficient number of times (the one I am using here is my mum’s which is as old as me). My brother popped out of his room a few times to judge me, but that’s nothing new, and I shall forgive myself for the lack of focus in some photos because somehow this ancient Canon cannot focus in low light settings.
I love this particular blazer because it is oversized and fits too big and is thrifted and everything I love that is also everything my mum hates. I keep seeing belted oversized blazers on instagram and everywhere and I have always wanted to try it since a few years back but sadly this was my first foray. I realise the silhouette is amazing because when it’s belted the excess fabric of the blazer juts out to create the most lowkey pannier cage things at the hips.
In this lighting, the coral pleats of the dress lowkey gives me goldfish tail vibes and I really dig it. I remembered getting it when I was maybe 15, and well obviously it didn’t fit as well as it used to, but if anything growing taller made it much more wearable because I remembered this long dress just sweeping the floor when I was younger. I think the trick to an oversized blazer pairing is to either go super short till there’s only a bit of fabric peaking out beneath, or to go floor length and go crazy. Short skirts are cute but they never really suited me, and will be even stranger now that I look like a little boy, so I am always more inclined towards longer dresses naturally.
I think the circuit breaker also made me much chiller with dressing up because there’s nowhere to go and now when I do go out the crowds scare me sometimes (the lure of capitalism is too great!) so I mostly stay in my pajamas. Therefore, the lack of accessories. That is my point. Getting short hair also made me more attracted to the bigger and more obnoxious earrings because there’s no hair to get in the way of showcasing its full glory, so I would pair something large, preferably till my shoulders, together with this. My friends laughed at me for wearing earrings as a way to signpost the fact that I am in fact still a girl because the mask on doesn’t help my case, but I lowkey dig the juxtaposition between feminine elements and the overall more masculine look. The whole blazer + dress combo plays into that as well.
This rounds out my first outfit post in a long time, and I can’t get used to how it feels writing it, and I am even more afraid of going back to my old posts and looking at those writing. The incongruity of the hair and the outfit was how I started off this post, and I think in general posting about clothes, a seemingly superficial endeavor, is also very incongruent with the kind of life I am living up now. The trepidation and fear of judgement is back since I have not done this in awhile, but I’m going to take this as a personal challenge to keep doing what I want to do, dress however I want, and not change who I am just because of an external change in environment.
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