Callback to my first ever photo blog post called “Reversi”. Back when I was writing it, all I had to worry about was how it seemed like a bad idea that I am starting a blog in the midst of my Sec 3 exams. Wow, after A levels, it feels like everything is much smaller in comparison. To me right now, I imagine myself teetering on the brink of the life I have and something completely new.
I want to put in some temporary hiatus here from these photo shoots, hence it’s a cute idea to reference back to my very start. After this, I probably cannot indulge in this (“narcissistic hobby”, so my brother would term it). The superficial reason would be because I would be so ridiculously burnt and tanned that I don’t feel up to taking photos. The deep reason though, is that I really will not have time and energy for this if I plan to completely focus and do well in what I plan to do.
In this sort of open-letter thing to myself, I just want to document some of my thoughts so that a few months down the road I will remind myself of how it was like when I started. Quite literally reminding myself why I started this.
How am I feeling now? A little worried to be honest. But endlessly excited, something close to how little children feel the night before their first field trip. I don’t think I am being naive, because I know that there will be so many shit times and it is not all sunshine and rainbows. Those shitty experiences nonetheless make me look forward to it more, because I want to see how I will turn out after that. I won’t regret this decision, and perhaps my greatest worry at this point is any form of injury. I’m not kidding, I really really keep my fingers crossed that all goes well.
And I hope that at whatever age I am reading this, I will not regret it, and that I will feel confident that I have given my best.
Maybe a few reminders for myself to work as a benchmark for future reference:
1) Observe more, talk less, and I really really hope that I can cut back on the intimidating impression I give.
2) Take proper care of myself. Be a responsible adult. Spend my rest days wisely.
3) Stay interested and passionate about humanity.
4) Can I find new answers to questions such as “what is leadership?” and “how would I cope with right and wrong and everything in between?”
5) ((Really hope to push myself physically and my 2.4 timing will first hit 10.30))
Anything is whatever you make it out to be, so before I am off on this new journey, I just want to clear my head and be an annoying optimist. Any words of encouragement and things can wait I guess, and I look forward to charting this path!
Let me just end off with this iconic jump shot that I have included in my first post. Everything’s a lot less blurry. It’s a great sign.
Updates 
Leave a comment